There was a shame and guilt class today that I identified
with. All this time over the last few
months I thought I was feeling guilty, when in fact, I was actually feeling
shame for what I did. I liked this class
because it spoke to me. It made me aware
of certain things that I can work on to improve. I’m not going to reveal those certain things
because I’m embarrassed (that is supposed to be funny). In all seriousness I’m
not going to reveal them because I want to work on them myself and fix them
myself. Most of you probably already
know what those weaknesses are anyway.
I’m hopeful with proper steps I’ll be able to instill a greater confidence
in myself.
Just a note to family and friends, do not take Tylenol before drinking or when you are hung-over. I’m sure some of you already know this, but one of the ingredients in Tylenol is supposed to be broken down by the backup system of the liver, but since that backup system is still helping break down the alcohol it can’t get to the Tylenol so, in turn, it just does more damage than it does to help. I forget the name of the ingredient…something like Aphetementocephalyde or something like that; I probably should have taken better notes or listened more closely. Come to think of it, I don’t even think that I heard that tidbit in class. I’m pretty sure it was one of the crack head junkies sitting near me, and I thought it was the class because I was sleeping. File this last paragraph under “Disregard" (2013 Note: Wow was I dumb. Acetaminophen you dolt!)
2013 Note:
I sound brainwashed there. Reading that, I have to call BS on myself. I still feel extremely guilty for getting into that car. Guilt is what drives me not to make the same mistake again. Sure, I was largely ashamed for the DUI, but that has faded over the years. I can't speak for how other people view me, or judge my past transgressions with alcohol, but I don't view that phase of my life with such a negative stigma on my character anymore. I now see the experience as something useful that can be bestowed on to other people before they get into a car after a few too many, or even if they've also gone through the process and are viewing the DUI program as an annoyance....Tony Robbins Out!
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